I was at BSF today and we were studying about Balaam and Balak’s attempts to curse Israel (Numbers 22-24), and I had a revelation. For those who are unfamiliar with the story, here is it in a super brief nutshell:
Israel is advancing towards the Promise Land and had just won a couple of battles over some kings in the land. Then this king called Balak starts freaking out because he’s afraid that Israel is going to overthrow him, so he goes and hires this diviner guy called Balaam to put a curse on Israel. The whole story continues as Balaam tries to manipulate God into allowing him to go to Balak to put the curse on Israel even though Israel is the chosen people and are blessed by God. Eventually though, Balaam gets his way and goes to Balak, but he’s unable to curse them. Instead he ends up pronouncing seven oracles that blessed the nation of Israel because God puts those words in his mouth.
And in the midst of all that was the most random story with the talking donkey. You might have heard about the donkey previously because it’s so bizarre…but anyways, my revelation was this:
I realized that in spite of all this drama with Balaam and God, the Israelites had no clue this was even going on! God was defending and fighting on their behalf for 3 entire chapters, and the Israelites had no idea. Crazy! Talk about not taking credit and doing things in silence! Our God is such a God! He would not allow His people to be cursed, and turned it back into a blessing. If you think about it, it’s amazing that God would do that for them despite everything they have done against Him. Time and time again they revolted and rejected God, complaining and complaining and complaining. And yet God loves them so much that He would still fight for them! Even without them knowing! It almost feels like a TV drama…
And that is how God still is towards us. That is His character: He is never-changing and doing that exact same thing for us. Half the time we are not even aware of the battles that He has fought for us, and yet we complain about the little bits of suffering that we go through and reject Him. We turn away from Him because we focus on the one thing that causes us to suffer. It’s true that suffering is painful, but when we only focus on that, we forget that God is so much bigger and is for us. Instead we complain that He is not there, or that He is hurting us on purpose. Our perspectives get thwarted and we walk away from Him when He has been silently fighting for us all this time. And yet even when that happens He continues to fight for us and patiently waits for us to come back to Him.
It reminded me of this cartoon strip that I saw some time back. I don’t really agree with the line in the last frame, because I don’t think God makes mistakes or misses things. But the rest of it pretty much reflects what I just said. And I am just so in awe of God’s goodness and sacrificial love. We humans always want to take credit, but He does it in silence. We don’t deserve it but He is just so amazing.